Travis Barker will release his new memoir Can I Say: Living Large, Cheating Death, and Drums, Drums, Drums on October 20.
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The 39-year-old musician got candid about his journey of self discovery including his battle with depression, reported E!online. “That was pretty pathetic”, he said. “She’s one of those great things that happen that you’re like: ‘Whoa, wasn’t expecting that.’ And I just never second-guess it. Just enjoy it”.
Barker also talked about his struggle with survivor’s guilt after the plane accident. I was on all these insane crazy bipolar drugs too cause I was suicidal in the hospital, masking everything from the pain of thinking, ‘Are my friends dead?
He said: “I’ve done more drugs than I’d like to say and my memory sucks”. I was afraid if I left the house something would fall out of the sky and hit me.
And when asked about how his perspective on life has shifted over the years since the plane crash, he shares, “Unless you’re actually going through something like that, you don’t know how it feels…I’d just see people walking through their day and they don’t realize they’ve never looked death in the face”. And I paid the price for it, self-medicating for so long. “Mentally, it was a good six months where I just had to get my mind right”. I didn’t care about anything except being with my kids, my father, my sister, Shanna…I didn’t think I was going to survive.
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The Blink-182 rocker was one of only two survivors when a Learjet 60 carrying him and five others crashed in South Carolina in 2008 and Travis revealed he caught fire “from my legs all the way to my back”.
“We got (to the airport), and I did my normal thing: I’m medicating”. You don’t know what it’s about.
He told Us Weekly: “I went from being a little pink abusing stuff to having a second chance at life”.
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“Back then I was living very much day-to-day”, Barker explained in a new interview with Billboard. They don’t realise how quick a few unfortunate shit could happen, and usually there’s no warning. I was like, ‘Man, it’s my life. It’s chill. Take a deep breath.’ But every day since the plane crash is another day I walked away from death.
